The Villains World

Right here waiting

2008-12-18T06:17:00.000-08:00

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh,can't you see it baby
You've got me going crazy

Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Waiting for you

The Fish and The Water ^^

2008-11-04T08:25:00.000-08:00

Only Love by Trademark
2.a.m.and the rain is falling
here we are at the crossroads once again
you're telling me you're so confused
you can't make up your mind
is this meant to be
you're asking me
but only love can say try again or walk away
but i believe for you and me
the sun will shine one day
so i'll just play my part
and pray you'll have a change of heart
but i can't make you see it through
that's something only love can do
in your arms as the dawn is breaking
face to face and a thousand miles apart
i've tried my best to make you see
there's hope beyond the pain
if we give enough - if we learn to trust
but only love can say - try again or walk away
but i believe for you and me the sun will shine one day
so i'll just play my part
and pray you'll have a change of heart
but i can't make you see it through
that's something only love can do
i know if i could find the words
to touch you deep inside
you'd give our dream just one more chance
don't let this be our last goodbye

Exam Result + Life

2008-10-20T05:25:00.000-07:00

Exam has out on Saturday. Actually that day i m so busy coz the whole day at bba for the fudaoyuan one day camp, then at nite go ju shi lin for meeting. So no time to check. Finally at nite after the meeting at about 11.00 i finally hv time to check. The result appear very fast and i dun even hv prepared to see. I got 4A and 2 A-. Actually not very satisfied coz my CGPA is 3.91 only. The target is not set quite high enough. I hv to get 3.85 in six semester exam. This mean i hv to be more hardworking next time.

Recently always meeting nia. So not very want to go back weekend. Coz very busy there. The time is full of meeting. I think it will be more relax in penang. Haha. But still happy lah. This is my choice. Coz can still meet all frens there. Although it's tired but still happy. Nvm lah. ^^

Holiday

2008-09-26T03:16:00.001-07:00

Long time no update liao hor... Haha! Coz english bad, duno want write wat. Erm.. Since long time no update, now update a bit bit loh.

This holiday seems so bz. Busier than exam. Coz everything postpone till holiday. Got both sunday classes, both camps. Haiz... Juz slow slow bz loh. Haha.

Tiny

2008-09-05T19:56:00.000-07:00

I m a tiny man in this world. I m no body. I dun play my role well. I fail in every role that i play. Yes, I m a failure.

As a son, i am not a good son. I dunno how to be concern and ti tie to my parents. They always think about me but i dun. I duno wat can i do for them. Yes, perhaps i can change myself to become better but that is no more natural. I hv to force myself to do something. It doesnt feel right.

As a brother, also fail. My sis always think of me when she encounter with anything that i m interested in. I always receive present from her. But she juz receive my wish in her birthday. I not even know wat she is really interested in till now.

As a friend, lagi gai! Although i really cant do much physically for my friends, but ppl say at least u hv a mouth. But my mouth is useless than a ya3 ba1. I always talk badly. Duno how to be sweet with friends. Yes, this can be changed but ppl will think it is very jia3. Seeing other ppl can gv out so much for their friends i juz feel that i m very tiny and small. Haiz... I am stil in a learning process but it looks like i m acting....

As i student also not as good. As a lover, got zero mark oredi very good liao. Dunno if i m in negative. Such useless guy. I m so tiny. I duno wat can i do. I juz try very hard to change myself but it is not natural liao mah. Look very jia3. Haiz.. wat can i do? I duno who am i in this society.

Coming exam

2008-09-01T07:39:00.000-07:00

Haiz... 4 sept is my first paper in TARC. It's Business IT. I duno how will I perform in this first exam. Although my coursework all get good result, but only 20% of the total. Haiz...

Long time no exam liao, dunno how to cope with it. Juz wish myself all the best. That's all. Juz cant wait for holiday now. Want fast fast over exam then can relax liao. Haha!

2008-08-04T06:04:00.000-07:00

BBA 'tian shi' shou yu performance

BBA CNY 'da tuan yuan' shou yu performance

BBA CNY 'hao jiu bu jian' shou yu performance

My Life Recently

2008-07-31T20:56:00.000-07:00

Recently, still the same, very smooth. Ntg much. That day juz pass the orientation nite. This year's proms a bit low quality loh. Not as pretty or handsome. But still ok la. Erm, something happy happen is that i got two 100% ( microeconomics & Business Statitstics )Business Statistics still have test 2, dunno wat result will get as it become harder. My IT very bad, juz got 39 out of 50. Dunno y i juz cant study IT and the worst is it has test 2 also. Gai...Next week got accounting test, dunno how also. haiz...

Two days ago receive wendy's call and she said oredi put me in kecheng. I juz think of it few seconds and I promise liao. Haha. I also duno y i accept. Maybe i got say b4 i m too tired to be in sheng huo liao. So accept ke cheng also good. I hv oredi wanna get in for long time liao juz tak berani nia. This time is a very good opportunity.

But how about sheng huo? Nvm, got indian girl and cute cute punya NS, i fang xin. But i wont love new forget old de. I ll still help in sheng huo if i can and i will follow sheng huo to continue growing. Everyone gambateh fot this year's camp!

Perak One Day Trip

2008-07-28T00:26:00.000-07:00

27 July, we went for a Perak trip with the Sunday class of BBA. It's a lot of fun. My bus very good coz all young ppl (teacher) but i think becoz of they lack of experience coz mostly form 1 and form 2 so the atmosphere not as hot as i expect, so i tried to make it hot myself and also wendy ( bus leader ). Wendy and I has been in the same bus since we know each other almost everytime go out. Juz maybe two times not same nia, the rest all same, haha! You Yuan.

We went for 4 caves (actually 5 but time not allowed). That day also mc's birthday, so i bought one present in Perak Cave for him. At nite, we went to Penang house and celebrate with him, we juz gone crazy and look at his face.... Hahax, anyway , happy birthday!

Shou Yu performance & a great talk

2008-07-20T07:31:00.000-07:00

This is the team ( cant find me coz i didnt go the party )

Today is the day jr's shou yu team perform at the 'Ang' kongsi. N it's quite bz for me today. Firstly, i hv to go BBA 8.45 am to lend my t shirt to them n i hv to rush to BLBS to teach my sunday class. Then after my class at 10.30 i rush back to BBA to see them practice. Then i fetch them to the venue. There, the traffic is stuck n i m very poor in driving. Gai loh, miss tampok cant get out. Luckily got an uncle very good teach me how to go out. Haha

After fetch them i hv to go back to BBA again to attend to meeting of the one day trip as i m the bus leader (assistant of wendy, she is performing as an angle... Kaka )After finish meeting hv to go back to Ang kongsi to see them but they hv finished. So i juz hv my lunch there n go back to BBA again. When back to BBA, we start talking n i teach wen hao math. Then suddenly that 38 shuang an come to us n say got something to see. About ten of them went up to 4th floor to see how sweet jr & mk. Haha. They juz like thieves n crawl in the hall. Seeing then hugging....

Sadly i didnt see it coz i m still teaching wen hao math. Then after that they all say wanna go up. SO we go up n suddenly fern ask me to teach as they wanna play teacher n student. They say they wanna hv a horoscope class. So i make it as a sharing time. Ask them to devide into four classes of horoscope n ask them to find things in common in love. Then after that i ask them to present n it is such a good sharing. We know more about each other n ask them to say out who the like. Haha. Very good also as they gv tips n others guess.

Then about 5 we go home. SO sorry to jr coz jin jie hv some misunderstanding when communicate with his mom n his mom called shu hua lao shi asking y he not yet come back n shu hua laoshi called jr. Gai... So sorry for him. Coz we wanna hear story mah... Haha.

My First Presentation

2008-07-13T08:55:00.000-07:00

Laz wednesday was my first presentation. It is for Hubungan Etnik. The title is 'Bagaimanakah Program Citrawarna Malaysia mengeratkan hubungn etnik di Malaysia?" We hv done the assignment n yet we hv to present it. Our lecturer is the best. He never reject our assignment. Other classes lecturer juz reject again n again, do till they wanna die. Gai loh...

That day i wear formal to college. B4 that our lecturer got say if can, wear pakaian tradisional as this is Hubungan Etnik. Haha. That time, the whole class all mulut terbuka n someone even cough. That situation is really funny. Haha. Actually i hv pakaian tradisional for chinese but it's weird to wear lah. So juz wear formal. One of my group members that is our leader got tie, looks smart.

That day got three groups present. The first two groups use transparent, they very busuk loh, use transparent n juz read from it. Our group dun wanna waste money so we juz write on board n present. That day seems like i perform the best as i dun refer to any paper. Haha, haulian loh. Other ppl juz read n refer paper. Hahax. Our class got twenty two ppl n only five boys. So we five juz be in the same assignment group for every subject. Haha. Coz we still havent masak with all the girls yet. But recently got one Indian girl named Yoga very good. She's kind n we got say joke n talk. But i think after that presentation day we all r getting closer but still havent close enuf. Hope it will be better.

LIfe During College

2008-07-07T18:47:00.000-07:00

My group during orientation week. We are 'SEED'! There got 40 groups all together. 20 is by the name of hero like 'ninja turtle', 'the hulk',; & the other 20 that is me, r by the name of brands like 'seed','converse','nike'. Then, we form two big groups. The hero one called SBS, the brand one called SOT. At last SBS win the crown, as SOT has oredi won 4 years.

This is the beach party after orientation week. There got two days. One day is SBS, one day is for SOT. The tradition of this beach party is everyone muz be thrown into the sea. Haha. Have a lot of fun there.

My roomate, James Teong's birthday eve. We celebrate one day b4 becoz the next day we all go back liao. Make him wanna cry nia.

We all kisiao. Coz seeing xu wei & wen feng taking photo through xu wei's webcam. So we all join in n make many kinds of crazy pose. There r many n sorry i cant post all here. Friendster has it all.

Farewell dinner for Nian Sern & Jian Yu at Alex. That time Nian Sern go back liao, ke xi. Nian Sern(NS) go Negeri Sembilan (NS). Haha!

My housemate all go Gurney watch Indiana Jones. Juz except Er Min.

The day we go BBA to get photo.

Lame life

2008-07-02T04:18:00.000-07:00

Life after stepping into college seems so bored for me. Actually not bored, juz i like life with up n down. But i dun mean to expecting something bad happen. Juz maybe my heart can be always up n down. Coz now i m not happy n not sad. Very lame. Recetnly i always listen to many frens talking about thier heart problems. No matter happy or sad. Sometimes i really wanna be like them. I think it will feel better.

Maybe i juz can look things very open minded. Although somethings seems like can be make me angry or sad also i look very positively. Haha, dunno good or bad. But juz maybe, i also whether i can be so positive or not.I dun like life with no up and down will make me miss chance to grow up. So envy them that can meet with many up n down in high school oredi. Really can see them grow up. Me leh... Haiz.. Too smooth oredi, hard to grow up. Now 18 years old, about to step into grown up world, but still cant experience enough to grow up.

Today, i got read the Love Textbook lended by jian rong. I got see the horroscope n heart test behind. I dun think i can write it out. So if wanna see, wait till u can read chinese n go see my chinese blog. Haha.

First experience of doing recycling

2008-07-02T03:01:00.000-07:00

I receive a sms yesterday, a TAR Tzu Chi ppl ask me to go do recycling at the block i stay in that is G block. I juz accept the offer.He say 5.30 wait at ground floor but i wait till 6.30. Wasai!!Besides this i feel that i also been cheated. Firstly i tot juz collect things from G block only, but then only i know we hv to collect from A to G. Wah!!! Want faint liao. Haha. U know wat? A block to F block dun hv lift!! Got 4 floor n one ground floor. All need to go by stairs. But G block also not good as well. Got 11 floor, n juz two lift. We need to use the lift to send the things but the residents juz complain coz we need long time. So we do like siao lang, need to be fast. Really sweat many loh, seldom sweat like this, all the shirt wet. N very thirsty, coz cant drink. Hungry also. Coz i duno will do till 9.30. Luckily i got eat noodles at 4 but still very hungry coz till 9.30, tak boleh tahan!

OK,dun talk nonsence. Talk about feeling. ALthough very tired, i was so happy. Dunno y. Juz so happy. Haha. I got ask my fren to go but all dun want, they juz wanna stay at home n do nothing. Haiz... quite disappointed. They juz prefer to go for entertainment that need lots of money but dun want join this for no money. Some ppl say dun wanna go if few ppl coz few ppl means more work. But, if everyone thinks like this, who on earth r gonna do this? If everyone thinks more ppl less work, then many ppl go then all ppl will hv less work loh.

From here, can apply the theorty of guan yin pu sa. Y she has thousands of hands? This is not monster. This can be applied in our daily lives. For example, doing recycling. When we do, actually all of us will hv the same aim n same heart. So actually we r the same n can be said that we r one body, but we hv many hands as we can cooperate n work at the same time. This is wat guan yin pu sa wanna teaches us. Buddhism is not supersticious. There r meaning behind all wat we can see. So in order to xiu xing , we muz not only ask something from pu sa, we muz learn to be pu sa, n be one of her hands.

In this activity, i really see much kind of ppl. Got good n bad. Really a very good experience. N noted here, the recycling revenue of Tzu Chi in Penang will be all transfered into the dylisis fund. Hope that all of us can be hands of guan yin pu sa next time!

Disappointed

2008-07-02T02:41:00.000-07:00

This post was posted in 11 june, however, there will be some change. I ll write below.

Today, i went to the first activity of the Buddhist Society in TAR. B4 that, i got see the promotion activity done by this society in orientation week. I can see this society has oredi become very worse. So, i juz hv a very keen heart to join juz to try to do my best to save it. But after the first activity, my heart become cold.

I juz saw few members, very few. At first i tot the members will be all cold cold , quiet one. But then i find out they r over acting! They juz pay no cooperate, n a bit supersticious. We will nian 3 times namobenshishijiamounifo, then he juz say y dun wanna nian da bei zhou, he say this is the basic, n ask the chairman whether he know how to nian or not. the chairman say he dunno then that guy juz say u can retired liao, duno da bei zhou. Wasai!! He say we can do many activity like chanting, san bu yi bai, fang sheng. Ei, u think we all old man ah. No wonder no ppl wanna join this society.

I also very disappointed with my frens. They hv experiences in Buddhist activities like this but they juz all refuse to join. Say that dun wanna diikat with religion. Wat kind of excuse is this!! Urghhh!! Now juz me only, how can i save this society especially from those crazy ppl. Got heart but dun hv power.

**** updated news after the second activity****

I finally see some ppl with kebolehan. Coz that day i hv to design banner. Then got one guy that is quite handsome also, haha, finally incharge of this things n i can see how he seperate work to all of us. Wat a good leader. N i also meet the chairman of confusian high school buddhist society. Also a normal guy. N that 3 crazy guy juz sit a back doing nothing. Haha, hopefully the chairman will see thier unnormal condition n hopefuly wont pass his throne to them. With juz these few normal ppl, i finaly hv the confident back. Gambateh!!

I hv changed

2008-07-02T02:29:00.000-07:00

Laz time, i m quite talkative. As long as in a group of frens, i always will be the focus coz i talk a lot. I didnt mean to be like this but it juz come naturally. I can make frens easyly.

But, after i hv been to college, i juz changed. I become a quite person. I dun like to talk. N i find it hard to make new frens. During the orientation week i juz really find it hard to mix with others, i juz duno y. Maybe becoz after spm i got about half year juz stay in house n seldom hv social contact, juz that bunch of frens only.

My housemates n other frens all can make new frens in college. They can go out often coz they hv frens that hv transport. I juz hardly hv new frens lerrr... Ten fingers can count all. Haiz... This kind of change doesnt seem good to me.

N also, after getting into college, my frens r so hardworking in finding target. All juz drunken in the world of ‘L'. Haha, wish u all success. But as for me, cant at all. Like not interested in this anymore. Become an insulator. Gambateh for those who hv target lah. Wish u all luck!

Start School!!

2008-07-02T02:05:00.000-07:00

20 May, is the starting of my life in TAR college. Say goodbye to the life in high school n say hello to college life. This year wesak also no mood n atmosphere to celebrate coz i m quite bz to prepare for starting school. Actually i find that i really hard to addapt to this new life. How to say?

Firstly, the ppl in college all very matured, especially the seniors. Dun look like juz big us one year only. I dun think my thinking can keep up with the standard of mature. I wanna chase up but at the same time i dun want. Coz i dun wanna be so matured. I scared i ll hv 'dai gou' with ppl smaller than me. I like to communicate with smaller ones so i scared i ll be too matured. Wat should i do? So mao dun. Should i be a double faced ppl？I duno if i can do it.

Next, i hv get use to spot question n dunno how to rely on myself to read books. Everythings in college hv to depend on myself. I dunno if i can do well in exam or not. Plus to continue on my scholarship, i hv to get 3.85 after two years!! Wow!! So stress! N i hardly talk in english, how can i speak well in college?

New life, new challenge, I think i can cope with it. Gambateh! The four days orientation week is a very good experience. It sounds like camp.THere r forty groups all together n my group name is SEED, the brand. The variety show is so quality, n the most unfogetable scene is one of the couple kiss on the stage in the hall in front of thousands of ppl!! Wasai!! Haha!!

R u a serious guy?

2008-07-02T01:41:00.001-07:00

Laz time, got hear classmate say about got a guy wanna chase her, but she rejected becoz she say he is not serious enough. Since then we like to use this sentece:" R u a serious man?" Haha. At first i think that i hv nothing good but i think at least i m a serious guy n one heart ( not flower heart ). But then, i receive a message from a junior n make me think of this issue properly.

"These few days wont be online often, Best wishes to u ' yi lu shun feng', Come back to see ur children when u r free, hope u can accomplish ur dream in the shortest time. Pls change ur non-serious attitude, n let us see ur matured side. But i think is very hard. Dun forget us when u r rich n rmb u still owed us one meal. Haha"

After reading this message, i really feel shocked. Y m i not serios? N this message is from a junior! M i so not matured? I wanna ask her but she had offline that time.

I m not upsad but juz wanna change myself. Hope u can tell me y u say me like this so that i can change.

I m oredi a looser, n dun hv any good thins inside me. Now that i hv found at least one good but again, denied by ppl. Haiz...

**** juz to inform that i asked her about this weeks later n it's juz a misunderstand, so ntg happen. ***

The Opening of This Blog

2008-07-02T01:38:00.000-07:00

Juz to inform that this blog is specially created to those who cant read my blog that is written in chinese. I try to translate wat i wrote in that blog as hard as i can. Maybe some meaning cant be translated perfectly 100% but i ll try my best. Thnx for supporting.